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double vision
03:46
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i want to get it out
of my body
i want to be
somebody who'll stop me
i
i am my own carbon copy
so close but what's changed
it's not the same thing
i don't know what i mean
don't know what i think
you are not like me
i want to get it out
out of my body
what is it inside
inside of me
i want to get it out
out of my body
it's not in my head, no not my heart
but it hides in between
i want to get it out
out of my body
it wraps around
everything
i want it out right now
out of my body
this is not what i mean
you are not like me
this is not what i mean
not what i think
you are not like me
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2. |
december 2017
02:50
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i think a lot about
traveling alone
but i'd never go
but i'd never go
i'm afraid to be alone
and there's so much i don't know
i shrink more than i grow
guess i'm just reaping what i sow
when it starts to snow
one of these december nights
i know i'll look up at the sky
wonder if you're on some flight
coming home to your family,
do you still feel lonely
or did you find yourself out there
i guess i probably shouldn't care
it's cold outside
thinking about the time
we drove around on the ice
voices raised so loud
a lost and sacred sound
it's all gone, my feet are back on the ground
i think a lot about
places that feel like home
the ones that i've outgrown
and the ones i don't yet know
there's a whole lot i don't know
and every where i go
i carve out the word "no"
and try to forget your "i told you so"s
it's cold outside
thinking about the time
we drove around on the ice
voices raised so loud
a lost and sacred sound
it's all gone, my feet are back on the ground
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3. |
scratches
02:32
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i want to be so soft
i am turning cold
the world begins to rot
and we are getting old
feelings i can't explain
the days i start to dread
the world is mad and red
and no you're not my friend
i don't even try
i can't even cry
anymore
i want to see
what's buried beneath
i want to be
anything
at night it gets so loud
my nose begins to bleed
the pieces i forgot
show up within my dreams
i can feel you leave
with every passing day
i am fumbling and desperate
for words that i can't say
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sunnylane rd
04:17
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looking out of the window
passing the road where I left you
we're frozen in time in my mind
in a safer place
taking one step forward
and stumbling 8 feet back
looking over my shoulder
while you're making victory laps
and it shouldn't kill me
we all move at our own pace
but every time i close my eyes
i drift farther away
and you can't reach me
no matter what you do
i saw a thousand
extended arms
and what did i choose
to push them away
or grab at hands that i knew wouldn't stay
and now i've lost my place
looking into my soul now
i see my younger self
she is small and she is scared
and she just needs some help
i'm taking one step forward
because i know she needs me to
i'll give her pieces of my heart
that did not belong to you
thinking of those who have hurt me
thinking of people i've left
the room starts to fill with colors blue
and feelings i misread
and maybe today i miss you
and maybe that's okay
i thought for sure that i'd be dead by now
but i awoke again today
and you can't reach me
no matter what you do
i'll be a thousand
extended arms
if that's what i so chose
to hold myself close today
and hold my hand and know that i will stay
i still take up space
i still have a place
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5. |
me too
04:19
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it's a stain that won't wash off
it's an ever present cough
so i wear a different coat
and i try to clear my throat
is that enough
and the cigarettes breed smoke
it seeps into my clothes
you can never really leave me
as long as i'm still in this body
where could i go
you're the pain within my stomach
i can't just throw you up
the earth, i feel it plummet
and my edges have gone rough
most days i feel better but some days i just sleep through
i hear the whispers of "i'm tired"
and i mouth back "me too"
you're the phantom pain
from 5,000 miles away
always remembering you
i wish i didn't want to
the world feels so unsafe
you'll keep images
that to me, do not exist
i'll break my heart again
imagining all your new friends
losing feeling in my fingertips
the pressure behind my eyelids
the feeling in my fingertips
the pain is focused in my ribs
the feeling in my fingertips
you claw behind my left eyelid
the feeling in my fingertips
you're stuck between my ribs
you're stuck between my ribs
you're stuck between my ribs
i'm pushing on my chest and coughing up
all of your shit
you're the pain within my stomach
i can't just throw you up
the earth, i feel it plummet
and my edges have gone rough
most days i feel better but some days i just sleep through
i hear them shouting "we're so tired"
it feels like being held
when i yell
me too
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6. |
splitting
05:13
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i was born in a field of strawberries
fruit punch red and every shade of pink
it fades in time and bleeds into the grays
colors harsh and sharp until they up and run away
and the red is missing
the red is missing now
let me dream in a field of strawberries
free from all the inconsistencies
underneath the safest, tallest tree
the strawberries are all i want to see
i let them in my field of strawberries
i can't decide if it's them or me
devouring, destroying everything
i split in two and i'm carried like a seed
how many strawberries will there be next spring
the rest are missing
the rest i'm missing now
let me die in a field of strawberries
fruit keeps falling down my sleeve
from my bony shoulders they pour into the street
i'll bury them beneath the safest, tallest tree
let me be in a field of strawberries
pull me out from the roots grown over me
toss me around or gently carry me
or leave me to sleep in this field of strawberries
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deleting messages for the first time
must've been a premonition the last 2 times i saw you
when i cried
in a fast food bathroom
i felt so stupid
then
but i wasn't
i was more than what you saw in me
it was never as good as i made it out to be
as i made you out to be
you made me so uncomfortable at times
maybe i was dumb to call you my friend
for 3 years but maybe i wasn't
because it was real, you were here
you just messed up real bad
i hope you'll grow
and get help
and i'll grow myself
and if i can be proud of me
then that's enough
if i'm growing up
then that's enough
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8. |
anesthesia
02:08
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mary is Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
songs made in my bedroom. my dog helps sometimes
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